Are you there God?

Hosea 10:12 Sow righteousness for yourselves, reap the fruit of unfailing love, and break up your unplowed ground; for it is time to seek the Lord, until he comes and showers his righteousness on you.

In my mind, I have been pulled in so many different directions. In the past month, I have been to the mountaintop of joy to the great grief of being a mere human. It has sent me to the barren parts of my mind. My belief in my Savior is here bursting in my heart, but it seems like the evil in our world is causing so much cognitive dissonance : why are you fighting for good, why cry for those who refuse help, the abandoned children from seeking to serve self, cancer and so many other diseases, but seeing the lack of good will or “ God’s will ” towards your fellow men, women, and children does not have to be.

Students, I had a rough week last week. I had physical sickness combined with heavy heart sickness. Everything I was hearing was bad. I think I felt like I was fighting the whirlwind of trouble in my community and felt hopeless. After retirement from teaching because of ALS, I asked God to use me. I explained to Him without my body, I could do more on His side of heaven. He said, “ You are more than your body ; use your mind. “ So I began the ALS retirement season. I began my “Brain Boot camp.” God has given me TIME. The most valuable commodity for building my mind. I spent hours educating myself, always searching to get closer to God. Whomever God placed with me, I did my best to show them God’s existence and love.

I, along with God, have been rolling since 2016, seven years. This may be my last winter, only God knows. My latest BIG adventures have been helping with races and events to help build love in our town and President of two nonprofit organizations, Matthew 25:40 INC and the YMCA of Dyer County. Lately hard decisions have been made to help us to move forward to grow and help our children move back to Christ instead of corruption. Like I said earlier Sunday I was struggling in spirit and began my Bible study. First question was to write a prayer. Boy did I. By the time that I was almost finished with the lesson on Hosea, He answered me.

Students, we are not alone in fighting for the way, the truth, and the life. We are created for good in our creator’s image. Just continue to seek.

My prayer

God I am troubled. The world is always in turmoil. I am searching your scriptures for answers. How do we begin to take back our children from the evil that surrounds us in our society? Please help me Lord to be a tool to help all of those who need you. Simply God it is just that we need you. How can we? Please help me, Lord. Help us be tools to help all of those who need you. How can we get back to our intimate relationship? Show us the way. I am not worthy God of the blessings that I have in this life but I know all of them come through you. Can you help me show others how you love and how to turn to you in these times that we face. Help me to influence those who could help us keep those people that are the least Among Us safe. Help us too always know and fear you God as we go through our days. God I am just looking for answers; I know that this world is broken but I also know our job is to help bring your kingdom to those Among Us who are the most broken please help me God.

Hosea 10:12 My answer to my prayer.

Sow righteousness for yourselves,[we have God’s righteousness WORDS = SEEDS sow them] reap the fruit of unfailing love,[put His words in your heart and mind and fertilize them] and break up your unplowed ground;[unploughed ground is new directions at the YMCA and continue to grow at Matthew 25:40 INC ] for it is time to seek the Lord, until he comes and showers his righteousness on you.[Keep looking at God and He will continue to bless you in this journey]

After doing my homework I had a message to call my daughter’s boyfriend. I said, “ Hope my timing was okay.” He reassured me that it was perfect. He had just pulled up to her apartment. He then began to tell me what a wonderful daughter Ken and I had. How he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her. I explained that marriage is also tough and it's work on both sides. It’s a lifetime of work and not sunshine and rainbows. It is sacrificing and compromising. It is putting yourself second. But, that goes two ways. It can be a train wreck or the ride of a lifetime swearing at the end you would punch your ticket again. He was so humble and gracious that it melted my heart. Ken and I tried to have this conversation not long before he left us. He looked at me with those beautiful blue eyes, so seriously telling me to take care of our girl. He did not want to leave her. He said I am a man and have seen how good girls marry cruel men. Sarah, she is special. He was and is so right. God blessed us. I promised that I would do my best. A month before he died, she met Andy. She was too nervous to bring him home so Ken never met him. He served at Ken’s funeral mass and is still proudly beside her. Listening to him tell me all the things that he loves about her and reasons he is the luckiest man alive, I realized that he would always just see one woman in the room, her. Ken, my eternal love, she will be blessed as I was. After we hung up the phone, I realized that it was the day before our 34th anniversary.

Sarah Anderson Alley

Sal the Blessed Gal

Quote of the Day

A perfect marriage is two imperfect people never giving up on each other.